Support

It's amazing how much crap we can put up with. I'm not sure if it is a sign of strength or just to damn tired to fight it. Why don't we say anything. My excuse is its worse than putting up with the crap. I am not listened to and everything gets turned around to make it my fault. So the problem is pushed away, only for it to resurface later. The way to handle is build yourself up. You are the only one who cares enough for you. Be your best supporter. Know that it is not wrong to love/like you.

Fire

Campfire, bonfire, fireplace. Any type that lets me sit there and watch the flames dance. I really need to sit by a fire when life gets a little rough. Watching the flames is like watching every stress burn up. It is so relaxing. Clears the mind. We have a fire ring in our front yard. We have a fire almost every night during the summer. Now that doesn't mean life is that stressful, just is relaxing.

Coyotes

Last night was the closest the coyotes have been. It was amazing. Coyotes really don't howl. It was alot of yipping and a sound that is very hard to describe. In my reading about women homesteaders, they have described hearing coyotes. These women of course would tend to be very religious. One woman described it as sounding like the gates of hell opened and demons escaped. At first in was a little frightening because I was sleeping. It sounded just unreal. The second time I was awake and it was still unbelievable. In the two times I heard them, only once each time sounded like a howl. They were right across the highway in a pasture. We were listening to the birds as we fell asleep and it sounded like we were in Africa. It is such a rush to listen to all the sounds. We used to have cattle. When we were calving, I had the graveyard shift. I would hear the coyotes, but they sounded farther away. Last night I was glad I wasn't in a tar paper shanty.